Monday, September 26, 2005

Weight loss and budgeting -- learning discipline!

I'm excited but I think I've quit losing. I need to really evaluate what I'm doing. I think I've "cheated" a couple times which isn't good but have been trying to get back into things strictly again. I've also not been eating a big breakfast any more plus I've cut down on my veggies and snacks. I've had more breads and stuff too. So, right now I'm just waiting for payday. I'm still learning how to live on a budget so right now I have $4 left for food until next Wednesday. Pretty much I'm just doing with what I have until then. I still have enough food for lunches, bread for toast and some steel cut oats (which take FOREVER to cook... which is why I rarely have time to make that for breakfast) and some eggs and my last dinner of the month AND that will all have been in my budget for my food! Unfortunately,I went over in two categories. :( But, it's my first month on the budget.

I was really inspired this last weekend by Earl Pitts' message. I can't wait to get my credit card debt paid off and then tackle my student loans.

I'm meeting with Tong and Jen on Sunday which I'm excited for. I sat down to evaluate where I am in the disciplines (such as weight, finances, intimacy with the Lord, time managment, etc) and really started to get a vision for what it is all for. And the avenue for the revelation? Business School with Dennis Peacocke! I'm also supposed to come with a target date for my goal weight, to be out of debt, etc and to share where I am at, where I am stuck, and where there is some success. Eventually, the goal is to be able to move and begin my own house of ministry, a thought that frightened me when first brought to me. There's still a fear of the Lord in it for me. I know that I have quite a bit to grow in before I will be ready for that. But this meeting will start laying the foundation for that.

I am praying for someone to disciple as well. I am struggling with trusting the Lord in this. I keep thinking 'everyone already has one' which may or may not be true. So I've had a youth on my mind lately and I wonder, "Lord, is that who you are leading me to disciple?" but I know little about her, and how does one go about that? I've been instructed in the past to wait for someone to approach me. Does that mean all the time or that one instance? She's under her parents... how would that work? So right now I'm praying. This has been something like a cloud hanging over me for more than a year. I want to be in obedience and discipling but have yet to see the provision. Maybe I'm not being fervent in my pursuit in prayer. Yes, prayer will need to be stepped up. Lord, be my provider -- even in this!

Thursday, September 22, 2005





These pictures were taken today, Sept. 22nd, 2005. My coworker was so great about it and wanted nice backgrounds. She wasn't too happy with the shadows in the ones with me by the tree :) I think they look fine though!

Upgraded "me"


A new and updated picture of me, taken yesterday, Sept. 21, 2005.

I look so very different! I'm not sure what to make of it, really. I know I've lost weight before, and yada yada.... but this time is different somehow. I feel like I have more of the Lord's heart of obedience and stewardship than I did before. I know I have the willpower. That is not the issue. But before it was all willpower -- all self and all about me.

Look, I have cheekbones :D

The Lord gave me an incredible word the other night. He said He was going to remove my sackcloth and give me outer garments. Now looking that up in Scripture is interesting! But also, in my disicpleship meeting today (in regards to finance but it confirmed the conversation was the Lord) April mentioned that He wanted to care for my needs and take off the old and allow Him to dress me in His garments. Wow! Wonder what His garments look like.... ;)

This is what I looked like in February:

Monday, September 12, 2005

The weight loss adventure!

Well, I'm not exactly the smallest person in the world...
But recently I started to do the South Beach diet as well as really falling into alignment and obedience on many things, including my food. On July 28th I weighed 224 pounds. On Sept 9th I weighed 210 pounds. I am so excited! I got to buy a size 16 pair of jeans and they fit!! I can't wait to see me get to under 200. That's my goal by December. I know I can do it with continued discipline and obedience to the Lord.